I know, you’re probably wondering about that title!! I feel ya!! Hear me out!!
I had a great day today!! My morning started with a healthy smoothie made with Flax Seed Milk, VegaOne Protein Powder and wild, organic blueberries. I went to the gym where I did 30 minutes of cardio and worked on my sexy shoulders in the weight room!! LOL
Came home, took a nice, hot bath, gave a fabulous 90-minute massage/energy work treatment, had a couple of meetings, a couple more clients; responded to emails and returned phone calls. Holy smokes this life of being an entrepreneur can be exhausting!! I wouldn’t change it for anything!!
Had my healthy, clean dinner – lentil soup and a rice cake, YUM!! At this point, I was reflecting on the wonderful day I had. I mean really, I was like, “I am so in alignment, everything just flowed today.” HA! Until I decided to mow my lawn! I should have stopped at the reflection part…
When I decide to mow my lawn, I am on a mission!! I look like a complete freekin’ maniac; soooo focused on the task at hand. Well, tonight, the mower kept dying! Can I just tell you, that wonderful mood turned into me swearing at the mower, pulling on the starter like an animal and really hitting a place of anger inside of me. Oh yeah, so much for the alignment part, right?! Isn’t it amazing how a jovial mood can turn to shit in a minute? At this point, I was deep breathing, praying, still cussing at the mower in my head, instead of out loud, determined to finish this particular part of my lawn which is a field; literally. I mean really Tina…what’s the big deal if you don’t finish?
My anger, or any other feeling for that matter, is MY feeling. When I choose to take responsibility for it, rather than blame it on someone or something, that is where my power lies.
I really decided to explore my anger. I mean, after all, the lawn mower was not creating it, but rather was touching it. My anger, or any other feeling for that matter, is MY feeling. When I choose to take responsibility for it, rather than blame it on someone or something, that is where my power lies. When I choose not to be a victim and take responsibility for myself and MY feelings, that is the place wherein choice lies. I took responsibility for my anger, stopped beating up the lawn mower and myself for not being able to start it and keep it from dying, and said the amazing, magical words I learned from my teacher, Naomi Lupin-Alpert, @Hartford Family Institute/Body-Centered Psychotherapy training, where I studied for 10 years: “I am angry and I need love.” When we can embody our feelings and bring love to the shadow parts, that is when we are truly bringing healing to ourselves. That is a moment where the molecule of love meets the molecules of anger and transformation happens at the cellular/molecular level! It’s not just an affirmation, it’s an embodiment…that’s what’s needed to make the shift.
What has your lawn mower taught you lately? Please share!! Hopefully, I am not the only one!!
Keepin’ it Real…